Because I work with such a large group I have to cover a lot of details each week. I am a fairly organized person but I’m also a very “right brained” person so too much structure stresses me out. I like to say that I’m very organized in a very unorganized way, if that makes any sense. I am constantly asking the Lord to help me with the details and to cover those that I don’t think about. In the worship services each week I have a lot of music details to remember. Sometimes I feel like the stage is a classroom and God is the teacher. He teaches me new lessons on a regular basis through working with this worship team. Sometimes in the middle of a worship song He’ll speak to me about an unconfessed sin or He’ll remind me to focus my mind on Jesus. Sometimes He’ll just bring to mind something I had forgotten about but needed to remember. I’m always amazed at how He covers my details for me but recently I realized that I may get a little too stressed sometimes about some of the details of my life.
A few Sundays ago, the Pastor called me up to the stage to lead the team and the congregation in a particular song that would tie in to what he was talking about. It just so happened that this song was one we had not done in quite a while and it was NOT in my memory bank. 
I quickly grabbed my notebook of music, desperately trying to find the lead sheet for this song. My heart was racing because the pastor, the worship team and the entire congregation was waiting for me to start the song but I couldn’t start the song because I couldn’t find the music. I happened to glance down and to my surprise I was in my pajamas! Apparently in my rush to get everybody ready for church and out the door I forgot to get dressed! Wow! So to recap, I was sitting at the piano in my PJ’s and I couldn’t find the song the pastor was requesting that we close the service with. All of a sudden I took a deep breath and then blinked my eyes; it was all just a dream! Please tell me that I’m not the only one who’s had this dream. I was in my bed and the alarm clock said that I still had a couple of hours to sleep. I turned over and silently thanked the Lord that it was just a dream. He reminded me of a verse- Matthew 10:30 – that tells us that God has even the hairs of our heads numbered. If He cares about those little details then He knows and cares about all of the other details of our lives.
The following Sunday, after my dream, at the end of the worship service the Pastor called the worship team back to the stage to lead a song. He looked at me and requested a song but called it by the wrong title. I had NO idea what he was talking about. He stared at me and the worship team stared at me and my mind was totally blank. I thought my dream was coming true! All of a sudden I realized what song he was referring to and I opened my notebook of music having no idea where that particular song was. My notebook fell open right at that song. Whew! I began the introduction to the song and silently thanked the Lord that He always knows and covers my details.
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Your message made me cry. You see, I am an older Christian who has always loved music as well. Back in the day, women were not allowed to be music leaders. Just last year, my pastor called me at work and said he had something he wanted me to pray about…being our Praise and Worship Leader! I immediately began to cry! I work at a school, and just 2 weeks prior to that phone call from my pastor, I had told a group of teens that if you can find a job that you would go to every day and love it even if you didn’t get a paycheck, then that’s what you should do for life. I said, “The only thing I feel that way about is music!” Well, my pastor wasn’t there, and those kids don’t attend my church, but my LORD heard my heart’s cry and answered quickly! I am tearing up just thinking about it!
Thanks for giving us “babes in ministry” some good advice and things to think about. I appreciate you and will be praying for you! Please do the same for me…as I only want to honor the LORD in whatever way He wants me to. Love in Christ, LV
Thanks for sharing this sweet testimony. What a blessing to be able to use your gifts for the Lord. He gave you a love for music and worship and then gave you the opportunity to use it in His service. There’s nothing sweeter than leading a group in praise and worship of our Savior. Keep up the good work. “Always give yourself fully to the work of the Lord for you know that your labor in Lord is not in vain”.
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